Moving on...

Hey blog...

Haven't been posting on you... No one reads anyway... I hope to be reading you in the future when my memory goes bad...

Anyway... I have been moving on with life, everything is moving on other than I'm romantically zero. Single-hood and no target in sight. Not that I'm actively looking, I'm not in the mood for it anyway. I don't move on as fast as Ms. Toh. That's less than 3 months.

I'm quite tempted to see her latest updates on Facebook... Very very tempted but I shall not. It brings back the pain in a way... She dropped me for financial reasons, not that she's materialistic but she has a bad shadow or trauma on poverty. Can't say I blame her but she's not being sensible or having a common sense.

When she wasn't doing well in her insurance I had to lend her cash occasionally. I even paid for most of her laptop and then she almost wanted to buy a car. Imagine the financial burden and outlook at that point of her insurance career. Did I drop her for financial reasons? Definitely not...

Of course it almost evened out later when I was still looking for a job in the economic depression.

Looking at my point in life right now, I'm much better off. Financially, materialistically, physically. Romantically zero. Not that I'm looking for a relationship but it's like I've gained a lot more but lost happiness. Not that there will be much happiness if we didn't break up, but I've definitely lost happiness.

Time to move on, I have a schedule meet, improvements to work on. I just need to move on with motivation and positivity. But the human, the carnal and emotional me wishes for Ms. Toh to suffer once what she has made me suffer through.

Evil? Vengeance? Hell hath no fury like a human betrayed and scorned. Of course that is bullshit, I'm not that evil, I just want her to stop standing on her tower of pride. That tower of pride has stood between us since a long time ago. And my only wish is to see the proud humbled.

God grant me this wish.