Another boring weekend, stuck at home.
Checked my bank account and got 2 shocking information...
One, I've got somehow more money than expected.
Second, I've only one bank account.
That means that my ex has terminated our joint account, which I wanted to terminate but I thought it needed me to go down and terminate as well.
Anyway, with that at least I feel that our 8 years together will be finally buried...
Into the pile of memories that I want to forget.
Feels like a movie/drama scene for my life, I wonder where's the story going next...
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
10th September
"
The occasional rustling and thrashing sounds rang out, breaking the silence in the dark. Rachel clutched her daughter tight as they hid from her drunk and abusive husband. 'Ccccmmmooonn ouuuttttt noww yer lil bitch!'
Hiding away in the kitchen cupboard like professional contortionists, the mother and child kept their silence, their increasing fast and loud heartbeat seemed to scream out terror and protested against the silence. With a thunderous crash of furniture and a loud grunt, all time seem to pause as the rage of abuse ended in all abruptness.
With a still racing heart and trembling frame, the mother emerged from their hiding place. Had their terror ended? Her husband had stumbled over furniture in a fit of rage and knocked himself out, with a massive bruised swell lining his head. Rachel's day ended in peace amidst the raging police and ambulance sirens as they left with the lifeless shell of her spouse.
With her husband in a vegetative state, Rachel starts afresh with her daughter, living her newfound life with hope. Until the accidents started coming... Reckless drivers almost ran her down, her car brakes were sabotaged and other near death 'accidents' threatened to consume her tiny wisp of life. Convinced that it might be the detached soul of her husband returning to wreck his wave of abuse, she decides to visit him in the hospital.
Upon reaching the hospital ward where the dark past of her life lay, motionless, attached to a life support machine, with more life than the man it is supporting, Rachel was forced to face again, the man she once loved. His facial features might have been slightly warped from the swelling and bruising but it was the fallen form of her husband. However, some of his facial trademark mole and birthmarks were missing. Realizing the terror and implication of this revelation, Rachel slowly stepped back with her eyes wide open in terror... This man is not my husband!!!'
"
Well yeah.. end of a chapter 1 book preview??? Not really... I somehow got this story in my head within 10 minutes... Sort of popped in my head when I just woked up for the second time trying to sleep. It's amazing how I got this crazy story and it's a horror to not be able to sleep properly...
Zzz damn... I'll try to sleep again now... got a good 4 hours before I supposed to wake up...
On a good note, having a good weekend this week... Not so no-life afterall, though a little miffed that my ex-girlfriend is taking so long to return something that I need... Oh well... life continues... I have to continuously improve myself.
Catch you again... goodnight! Or should I say, good afternoon... Zzz
The occasional rustling and thrashing sounds rang out, breaking the silence in the dark. Rachel clutched her daughter tight as they hid from her drunk and abusive husband. 'Ccccmmmooonn ouuuttttt noww yer lil bitch!'
Hiding away in the kitchen cupboard like professional contortionists, the mother and child kept their silence, their increasing fast and loud heartbeat seemed to scream out terror and protested against the silence. With a thunderous crash of furniture and a loud grunt, all time seem to pause as the rage of abuse ended in all abruptness.
With a still racing heart and trembling frame, the mother emerged from their hiding place. Had their terror ended? Her husband had stumbled over furniture in a fit of rage and knocked himself out, with a massive bruised swell lining his head. Rachel's day ended in peace amidst the raging police and ambulance sirens as they left with the lifeless shell of her spouse.
With her husband in a vegetative state, Rachel starts afresh with her daughter, living her newfound life with hope. Until the accidents started coming... Reckless drivers almost ran her down, her car brakes were sabotaged and other near death 'accidents' threatened to consume her tiny wisp of life. Convinced that it might be the detached soul of her husband returning to wreck his wave of abuse, she decides to visit him in the hospital.
Upon reaching the hospital ward where the dark past of her life lay, motionless, attached to a life support machine, with more life than the man it is supporting, Rachel was forced to face again, the man she once loved. His facial features might have been slightly warped from the swelling and bruising but it was the fallen form of her husband. However, some of his facial trademark mole and birthmarks were missing. Realizing the terror and implication of this revelation, Rachel slowly stepped back with her eyes wide open in terror... This man is not my husband!!!'
"
Well yeah.. end of a chapter 1 book preview??? Not really... I somehow got this story in my head within 10 minutes... Sort of popped in my head when I just woked up for the second time trying to sleep. It's amazing how I got this crazy story and it's a horror to not be able to sleep properly...
Zzz damn... I'll try to sleep again now... got a good 4 hours before I supposed to wake up...
On a good note, having a good weekend this week... Not so no-life afterall, though a little miffed that my ex-girlfriend is taking so long to return something that I need... Oh well... life continues... I have to continuously improve myself.
Catch you again... goodnight! Or should I say, good afternoon... Zzz
9th September
Been working for more than 3 months already... I was starting to get more and more work... So yesterday I emailed my boss about whether I can reduce my customer service time because got some other work to do. His email reply was "No, customer support is YOUR priority."
I got quite upset at that the entire day... I mean, it's like... all 9 hours? What about my break? Doesn't mean that I work in the night means no lunch no dinner... Naturally I was starting to steam with anger I mean... I'm human, no lunch no dinner just because I'm night shift??? I'm not undead -_-'''
And I wanted to ride out to buy MacDonalds for food, cause the nearest place to get food is a 24hrs Indian food stall... The food not really that fantastic and is more expensive than the coffeeshop at my place. Then I looked at the time, 3.54am... F**k... breakfast menu by the time I got there, last order is 3.45am...
So I just do work... until 5.30am I went to toast some bread (I have bread in the office) for my pre -work out carbohydrate... Supposed to eat one hour before at 5am but work work work... 5.30am then went to toast bread... Eat bread while working until 6.44am, was supposed to have a break at 6am, now become 6.44am.. Anyway I did my exercise for the day, went to brush teeth, wash face and put moisturizing cream.
From there, continue work til about 8+ near 9... Was supposed to do some other work but because of what my boss said... I continued to do the customer service work instead of sales... So when he came in I sort of frowned and stuff....
Then I worked til about near 10... supposed to off work at 9... So my other colleague came in and ask if got anything needed help during my shift so I talked about some work... He then told me that those work should be handled by the other colleague instead as it was the other departments' job scope to handle. So with that, I sat down and started to shoot emails (haha) to pass the work to the correct department...
With that.... I was clearing what I needed to push back and sort of have a revelation... That was what my boss was talking about in the email!!! "Customer support is YOUR priority" which means I have been touching other people's job scope and I only realized that today... No wonderr I always have work that cannot clear even though I work hard...
Turns out that I'm still a newbie at working :D
And I've wronged my boss.. He 'Yong Xin Liang Ku'. So now I feel like my email to my boss was abit of self-bashing... Anyway with my things cleared up, I know what to do now... Things that are my job scope is my priority, don't go do other peoples' work.
And on the way back, I noticed Kaelyn is abit dirty... The speedometer like got dirt marks, must be some bugger go and touch... And got 2 bird shit stains... Damn birds... I need a bike cover, or to park under lots without trees...
Gotta go sleep and work hard again tonight... So catch you again my dear blog!
I got quite upset at that the entire day... I mean, it's like... all 9 hours? What about my break? Doesn't mean that I work in the night means no lunch no dinner... Naturally I was starting to steam with anger I mean... I'm human, no lunch no dinner just because I'm night shift??? I'm not undead -_-'''
And I wanted to ride out to buy MacDonalds for food, cause the nearest place to get food is a 24hrs Indian food stall... The food not really that fantastic and is more expensive than the coffeeshop at my place. Then I looked at the time, 3.54am... F**k... breakfast menu by the time I got there, last order is 3.45am...
So I just do work... until 5.30am I went to toast some bread (I have bread in the office) for my pre -work out carbohydrate... Supposed to eat one hour before at 5am but work work work... 5.30am then went to toast bread... Eat bread while working until 6.44am, was supposed to have a break at 6am, now become 6.44am.. Anyway I did my exercise for the day, went to brush teeth, wash face and put moisturizing cream.
From there, continue work til about 8+ near 9... Was supposed to do some other work but because of what my boss said... I continued to do the customer service work instead of sales... So when he came in I sort of frowned and stuff....
Then I worked til about near 10... supposed to off work at 9... So my other colleague came in and ask if got anything needed help during my shift so I talked about some work... He then told me that those work should be handled by the other colleague instead as it was the other departments' job scope to handle. So with that, I sat down and started to shoot emails (haha) to pass the work to the correct department...
With that.... I was clearing what I needed to push back and sort of have a revelation... That was what my boss was talking about in the email!!! "Customer support is YOUR priority" which means I have been touching other people's job scope and I only realized that today... No wonderr I always have work that cannot clear even though I work hard...
Turns out that I'm still a newbie at working :D
And I've wronged my boss.. He 'Yong Xin Liang Ku'. So now I feel like my email to my boss was abit of self-bashing... Anyway with my things cleared up, I know what to do now... Things that are my job scope is my priority, don't go do other peoples' work.
And on the way back, I noticed Kaelyn is abit dirty... The speedometer like got dirt marks, must be some bugger go and touch... And got 2 bird shit stains... Damn birds... I need a bike cover, or to park under lots without trees...
Gotta go sleep and work hard again tonight... So catch you again my dear blog!
5th September
Hi blog,
Another no-life weekend for me.
Reached home at 10.30, ate breakfast and relaxed til 12 plus...
Then I fetched my dad out to buy some stuff...
Played a few dota games, which all ended miserably when you get shitty team mates...
Slept at around 3pm... And when I opened my eyes and finally got up, it was 1 plus am...
What a day... Woke up, washed up and then went to dota one game til 3 plus am... Then I decided to go out and study so I headed to ECP McDonalds with my laptop...
Was starting up my motorcycles' engine... It was a cold start, but I feel damn paiseh to rev the engine at 3 plus am, somemore it's a HDB carpark.... Don't want the revv-ing to resonate and disturb people... So I left with Kaelyn on a cold engine and rode off slowly....
Was thinking of how the forummers of SBT was saying 'mastering the machine' instead of having a lmotorcycle with good specs... So I tried to advance on my cornering... Not that I can't corner at higher speed, but I used to cycle and skid before due to sand particles... So it was a bit of a shadow that I refuse to leave...
So on the way to Bedok to hit the ECP (via Simei is just too far), I tried cornering at 40-50km/h... Not an issue, it was smooth and stuff... Usually I'll slow down and corner at gear 3 or 4...
With my newfound confidence I went a little faster on corners... However, when I was at the Bedok to ECP entrance, there was a long stretch of curve and so I did a nice corner... Reaching the lower half of the road... Damn, I could hear 'glick glick glick glick' sounds running off my tire and I was like 'F**k', was losing grip of the road... I had to slow down... So once again... I'm not going to leave things to chance... I'm gonna be cornering upright...
Reached carpark C4, not sure if that is the nearest carpark for Marine Cove but walking abit doesn't hurt.
When I got to Mc, I wanted to get a goody goody meal with upsize, imagine the tasty fries, the cold big cup of coke... And then!!! Breakfast menu, at 4.30am... WTF?!!
Yeah I asked and actually breakfast menu starts from 4am... Oh well can't turn back now... So I got a big breakfast and sat down for a nice meal... Damn.. Wanted fries and that apple pie though...
After the meal I took out the laptop and started reading the 'Dummies Guide to PHP 5'. It was a good book, but it lacked tutorials... That sucks... It's just like lectures lectures and lectures...
Halfway through I got bored... Losing focus so I started programming... Was making a file browser to catalogue my documentations... Sounds abit chim but anyway... I also gaveup after hitting some bug... Maybe the server needs a restart but oh well... I left for home...
Was walking back to the carpark when I was looking at the scenery and thought... I should take a picture so that I can remember what I did on my no-life Saturday...
It was quite dark with my camera phone... But surprisingly the preview on the phone and the captured picture is quite different... Got 3 good shots, albeit the only 3 shots...
Made for home from there... Going to dota a few :)
*No life*
Another no-life weekend for me.
Reached home at 10.30, ate breakfast and relaxed til 12 plus...
Then I fetched my dad out to buy some stuff...
Played a few dota games, which all ended miserably when you get shitty team mates...
Slept at around 3pm... And when I opened my eyes and finally got up, it was 1 plus am...
What a day... Woke up, washed up and then went to dota one game til 3 plus am... Then I decided to go out and study so I headed to ECP McDonalds with my laptop...
Was starting up my motorcycles' engine... It was a cold start, but I feel damn paiseh to rev the engine at 3 plus am, somemore it's a HDB carpark.... Don't want the revv-ing to resonate and disturb people... So I left with Kaelyn on a cold engine and rode off slowly....
Was thinking of how the forummers of SBT was saying 'mastering the machine' instead of having a lmotorcycle with good specs... So I tried to advance on my cornering... Not that I can't corner at higher speed, but I used to cycle and skid before due to sand particles... So it was a bit of a shadow that I refuse to leave...
So on the way to Bedok to hit the ECP (via Simei is just too far), I tried cornering at 40-50km/h... Not an issue, it was smooth and stuff... Usually I'll slow down and corner at gear 3 or 4...
With my newfound confidence I went a little faster on corners... However, when I was at the Bedok to ECP entrance, there was a long stretch of curve and so I did a nice corner... Reaching the lower half of the road... Damn, I could hear 'glick glick glick glick' sounds running off my tire and I was like 'F**k', was losing grip of the road... I had to slow down... So once again... I'm not going to leave things to chance... I'm gonna be cornering upright...
Reached carpark C4, not sure if that is the nearest carpark for Marine Cove but walking abit doesn't hurt.
When I got to Mc, I wanted to get a goody goody meal with upsize, imagine the tasty fries, the cold big cup of coke... And then!!! Breakfast menu, at 4.30am... WTF?!!
Yeah I asked and actually breakfast menu starts from 4am... Oh well can't turn back now... So I got a big breakfast and sat down for a nice meal... Damn.. Wanted fries and that apple pie though...
After the meal I took out the laptop and started reading the 'Dummies Guide to PHP 5'. It was a good book, but it lacked tutorials... That sucks... It's just like lectures lectures and lectures...
Halfway through I got bored... Losing focus so I started programming... Was making a file browser to catalogue my documentations... Sounds abit chim but anyway... I also gaveup after hitting some bug... Maybe the server needs a restart but oh well... I left for home...
Was walking back to the carpark when I was looking at the scenery and thought... I should take a picture so that I can remember what I did on my no-life Saturday...
It was quite dark with my camera phone... But surprisingly the preview on the phone and the captured picture is quite different... Got 3 good shots, albeit the only 3 shots...
Made for home from there... Going to dota a few :)
*No life*
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
The chicken or the egg?
Alright, looks like I've been blogging real much lately, albeit the past 2 days.
Today's thing was about the chicken or the egg...
My bet is not on the chicken, neither the egg...
I bet it on the chicken + rooster!
With an egg, you need it to be fertilized.
With a fertilized egg, you have 50% male chick, 50% female chick.
In the event that the chick factory keeps giving you female chicks (like how people don't get a bit of luck at 4D), at least you have the chicken + rooster to keep going at it!
At the same time, moral of the day, if at first you don't succeed...
Today's thing was about the chicken or the egg...
My bet is not on the chicken, neither the egg...
I bet it on the chicken + rooster!
With an egg, you need it to be fertilized.
With a fertilized egg, you have 50% male chick, 50% female chick.
In the event that the chick factory keeps giving you female chicks (like how people don't get a bit of luck at 4D), at least you have the chicken + rooster to keep going at it!
At the same time, moral of the day, if at first you don't succeed...
Uneven muscles
Hi all,
I read about this sometime before and decide to post it in case there are people who read my blog... In case... Just in case... Poor lonely blog, only with me to blog and the occasional people who read it.
Anyway, the reason why muscles are growing unevenly, some due to technique issues and to other minor reasons... The main issue is dexterity! Some of us are right handed and some are left handed... Not sure about ambidextrous people...
Basically the logic goes, (I'm right handed) my right hand has better control and so, weight lifting/work is more efficient, using less energy for the same weight, while my non-master hand works harder to lift the same weights my right hand is...
So basically left hand needs more muscle to do the same work so left hand gets more stressed and more muscles at the end of the day...
I read about this sometime before and decide to post it in case there are people who read my blog... In case... Just in case... Poor lonely blog, only with me to blog and the occasional people who read it.
Anyway, the reason why muscles are growing unevenly, some due to technique issues and to other minor reasons... The main issue is dexterity! Some of us are right handed and some are left handed... Not sure about ambidextrous people...
Basically the logic goes, (I'm right handed) my right hand has better control and so, weight lifting/work is more efficient, using less energy for the same weight, while my non-master hand works harder to lift the same weights my right hand is...
So basically left hand needs more muscle to do the same work so left hand gets more stressed and more muscles at the end of the day...
Total Knockout! Slept for 12 hours
Slept at 11.30am, woke up at 11.30pm. Ouchie, that left me 15 minutes of dinner and then straight to work.
That was most likely a combination of the after effects from [Project Hunk] and the cold rainy day...
Apparently I've increased the load of exercise yesterday and my body wasn't prepared for it... even though it got used to the previous load. So now I have to acclimatize again to get my body being able to take normal days' work and exercise.
"Is it worth it?" you may ask... I'm not entirely sure but I'm gonna continue doing it.
For [Project Hunk]!!!
That was most likely a combination of the after effects from [Project Hunk] and the cold rainy day...
Apparently I've increased the load of exercise yesterday and my body wasn't prepared for it... even though it got used to the previous load. So now I have to acclimatize again to get my body being able to take normal days' work and exercise.
"Is it worth it?" you may ask... I'm not entirely sure but I'm gonna continue doing it.
For [Project Hunk]!!!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I have an eye disorder!
1 or 2 years back I knew I had an eye disorder but didn't really read up on it til today...
Turns out it's a pretty serious condition, however I lucked out... My condition is mild, yet it went unnoticed until now. I don't think anyone else knows except me...
It's called exotropia, it's the outward turning of the eyeball (inward turning is esotropia), resulting in binocular diplopia for me.
In short, I see double vision when my eyeball turns outward...
More about it:
- Surgery is OFTEN required, and usually 35% require a second surgery.
- In extreme cases for children, when they have not grasped full control of their binocular vision, the brain may learn to ignore the misaligned eyes' vision, resulting in loss of depth perception in one eye, this condition is called ambloypia, or lazy eye (which most people mistake exotropia/esotropia for).
- Strabismus is a condition when both eyes are not aligned together.
- "Strabismus is more common in children with disorders that affect the brain such as cerebral palsy, Down syndrome, hydrocephalus, and brain tumors."
- "One study has found that children with exotropia went on to develop a psychiatric disorder three times more likely compared with the general population."
So in short: at 24, I found out that I have this disorder, and I'm 3 times more like to develop psychiatric disorders than the general population and might have undiscovered brain disorders. So WATCH OUT!!! The next psychopath might be me!
Read it here:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Exotropia
Turns out it's a pretty serious condition, however I lucked out... My condition is mild, yet it went unnoticed until now. I don't think anyone else knows except me...
It's called exotropia, it's the outward turning of the eyeball (inward turning is esotropia), resulting in binocular diplopia for me.
In short, I see double vision when my eyeball turns outward...
More about it:
- Surgery is OFTEN required, and usually 35% require a second surgery.
- In extreme cases for children, when they have not grasped full control of their binocular vision, the brain may learn to ignore the misaligned eyes' vision, resulting in loss of depth perception in one eye, this condition is called ambloypia, or lazy eye (which most people mistake exotropia/esotropia for).
- Strabismus is a condition when both eyes are not aligned together.
- "Strabismus is more common in children with disorders that affect the brain such as cerebral palsy, Down syndrome, hydrocephalus, and brain tumors."
- "One study has found that children with exotropia went on to develop a psychiatric disorder three times more likely compared with the general population."
So in short: at 24, I found out that I have this disorder, and I'm 3 times more like to develop psychiatric disorders than the general population and might have undiscovered brain disorders. So WATCH OUT!!! The next psychopath might be me!
Read it here:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Exotropia
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