I just had a dream... A dream that I've dreamed of many years ago while I was in secondary school. While I was aged about 12-16. I'm now 24.
Strange thing is, many memories of other dreams that I have before all came up, I started to remember many other dreams...
I started to remember people during that time. The strange thing is, are those people real? I had a couple of people whom I had a very thin friendship with. I was their CCA senior in library. Those people were vaguely familiar.
The question: There is a girl in my memory but extremely hazy (not that I have any deep relationship or liking whatsoever) that was tomboyish and very dark skinned for a Chinese. I think I called her Chao Da or something. Is this person real? Am I starting to lose the difference between a dream and reality? In my hazy memory, sometimes I walked part of the way home with her before parting, because I stayed near school.
I have asked this question several times but, is she real? I'm not concerned with who she is or will I have a chance to meet her. But is she real? Am I starting to grow an inner self/getting schizophrenic? Or have I merely suppressed my secondary school memories?
Being in a half asleep yet consciously awake is like having my conscious mind linked briefly to my sub conscious. It feels terribly real and yet terribly just like an illusion. I felt like I lost my mind back there. In the future I might want to get a psychiatric evaluation or hypnosis to pull out my memories.
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