Strange Sensation

I just had a dream... A dream that I've dreamed of many years ago while I was in secondary school. While I was aged about 12-16. I'm now 24.

Strange thing is, many memories of other dreams that I have before all came up, I started to remember many other dreams...

I started to remember people during that time. The strange thing is, are those people real? I had a couple of people whom I had a very thin friendship with. I was their CCA senior in library. Those people were vaguely familiar.

The question: There is a girl in my memory but extremely hazy (not that I have any deep relationship or liking whatsoever) that was tomboyish and very dark skinned for a Chinese. I think I called her Chao Da or something. Is this person real? Am I starting to lose the difference between a dream and reality? In my hazy memory, sometimes I walked part of the way home with her before parting, because I stayed near school.

I have asked this question several times but, is she real? I'm not concerned with who she is or will I have a chance to meet her. But is she real? Am I starting to grow an inner self/getting schizophrenic? Or have I merely suppressed my secondary school memories?

Being in a half asleep yet consciously awake is like having my conscious mind linked briefly to my sub conscious. It feels terribly real and yet terribly just like an illusion. I felt like I lost my mind back there. In the future I might want to get a psychiatric evaluation or hypnosis to pull out my memories.

A letter to my first love

Thus details the chaotic waves of emotion that has plunged me to the depths of hell and back many a time:

After you have left me, my heart was full on many accounts.

When my heart was full of love, I prayed for you to turn back so that I could love you once more.
When my heart was full of hatred, I prayed for you to turn back so that I could make you feel the pain that you left me behind with.

Now that my heart is empty though laced with regret, I pray for you not to turn back; For if you do, I neither have the heart to love you once again, nor the heart to hurt you by turning you away.

For if you do come back, I will only be facing my conscience of hurting your heart when I don't have the intention to.

Go forth and live life in bliss, turn back not, not for me.

~Nathaniel

Alone in the dark

Work work... Working as usual...
Took a coffee break.

Sat in a corner in the recreational area and drank my coffee.
When it's dark and I'm alone in the office, my thoughts start to run wild...
No not about ghosts and stuff... I don't get to see those anyway...

I start thinking about Elinna and the relationship again. I also saw her online but what can I do? I can't message her anyway. She told me to stop contacting her.

Sitting there with my coffee and running wild in my head about thinking about her and why this, why that...

It only happens when I'm alone by myself in the dark. When people starts flooding into the office I become normal again... Or maybe I have to act normal... Not sure...

I just know that people don't really give a damn about other people because everyone is busy with their own lives. Yeah so... work work...

Trying to move on but stuff just comes back to haunt me daily...

I see you in my dreams

I still have that hate message on my MSN.
I'm leaving it there so that when you read it, you can move on without me.

But it's funny...
I still love and miss you.
I had a dream of you today.
We were at a water theme park playing.
We were having fun.

It's funny how my conscious mind doesn't tell me I'm dreaming.
Perhaps it's because I wanted it that way.
Thank you God for letting me love Elinna in my dreams.

But I'm awake now. Missing you.

My sad love story explained in 30 seconds

Woman knows man for 4 months and falling in love with him: Such a sweet love story
Woman is together with man for 4 months before staying over for the night: Such deep love
Woman does all these 3 months after a failed relationship: The will to move on from failures
Woman does all these 3 months after a failed 8 year relationship: Strong will to move on from failures
Finding out about all these 6 months after the breakup when you're the ex and trying to patch: Fucking priceless
~My sad love story explained in 30 seconds~

Keeping the pain in...

How does it feel to be really really hurt?
How does it feel to be really really hurt and no one knows?
How does it feel to be really really hurt and no one knows and cares?
How does it feel when the love of your live moves on ahead without you?
How does it feel when you're waiting quietly for someone to turn back and instead all you find are memories and new futures?

Guess I'll just sit here and wait...
Until my patience fails...
Until my toughness falls...
Until my dignity tells me to lose it all...

But until then... I'll be waiting...
Like I have been waiting from even it all began...
Just quietly sitting by and waiting for you to turn back.

Ranting about my work

I'm currently working as a customer service/support personnel, so I get really stupid people that act all big and mighty (the customer is always right? No... the customer is sometimes FUCKING STUPID!)

Basically when ordering items, they need to get delivered and sometimes due to low stock or courier delivery issues, they will get their items late.

So here a customer complains, "WTF? I paid extra for shipping and my order is late???"

FUCK YOU YOU RETARD! There was only 1 shipping option available and that's the only shit you could select so don't fucking tell me you paid extra for shipping. YOU HAVE TO PAY FOR SHIPPING UNLESS SHIPPING IS FREE YOU FUCKTARD!

Ok, end of story.
Fucking retarded customer.

~Getting spoiled~

I think I'm getting spoiled or developing a strict palette.

I seem to find normal chocolates "cheap".

You know, the kind of feeling you get when you eat some chocolates you feel like, "Heh, this is cheap stuff."

Guess I'll stick to brownies and those restaurant level chocolate cakes for my chocolate cravings instead.

But "Hello Panda" chocolate seems to taste fine to me... *shrug*
Maybe Kinder Bueno/Kit Kat is getting lousier...

Pumpin' it up

Went to pump petrol again today, really been pumping about every 30 days haha.. or more...

That's a good thing, cause my petrol costs are cheap I guess...

Got 42.91km/l this month...

Going to try some fuel enhancer and also a cdi thingy...

Need to bring Kaelyn for a wash and wax, sounds a bit wrong if Kaelyn isn't a motorcycle... *wink*

But the bike grooming service is opened from 12pm, I'll be asleep by then... Hmph I'll have to go for the night wash then, but night washes require appointments. Argh...

But it would be good to have Kaelyn all nice and shiny :D

I'm still angry

It's been 8 months and I'm still angry, work issues aren't making things better.
Not going to rant here today... Think I'll keep it to myself...

Damn it.

'Hard to say I'm sorry'

Listen to the Westlife or AZ Yet versions.

Yes, I'm feeling the aftershock of a break up in a relationship, but what I want to emphasize is that while I'm still feeling sad and stuff, the songs I'm listening to and the lyrics shall not represent my thoughts towards the condition/state of the relationship and should not be taken as an attempt to salvage/recover/patch up the relationship.

Thank you for reading the disclaimer, in case you're the one involved in the relationship.

Keeping it quiet

I know some of my friends read my blog posts, albeit infrequent but since what I post are here indefinitely until Google closes/sells blogger away...

What I've posted here is what I'm feeling at the moment of the post. I'm an emotional person, (emo != emotional >_<) so I'm usually heavy with feelings or devoid of feelings, a little extreme.

Basically what I'm trying to say in this post "Keeping it quiet".
I don't like to go around telling people that I'm sad, stressed or whatever... I keep it to myself. I hate to go around getting attention from people because I'm NOT an attention seeker...

But I appreciate people showing me concern so thank you people out there who care ;)

>_< Somehow after typing down that line my emotions swinged down to something darker...

Fuck it, so much for not being emo...

Anyway, thank you all for showing concern.

Another lousy, no life weekend

The topic says it all. Life doesn't look like there is meaning for me. I know that there is more to life, but definitely not within these year... It's gonna be a lousy year.

I'll have to work hard at work, self study, self motivate, and enjoy my remainder year's worth of no life weekends.

I just want someone to care/care for.

Would you call that being emo? Definitely not... But no one really reads my blog anyway so f*** that.

I wouldn't want to post that on Facebook or MSN, just don't want my ex-girlfriend to come prodding and seeing how I've become/degenerated to.

Anyway, I feel like cursing/swearing, but I'll get many weekends to do that.

So... f*** it. Good day.

Toothy Woes

My mom told me that there was a dental clinic somewhere nearby my place that has affordable charges as compared to where she works at. My mom works as a receptionist at a dental clinic by the way...

Anyway... it's $50 for basic cleaning... I got billed an extra $70, $35 x 2 for filling 2 teeth. I'll need to fill 4 more, that's gonna be $35 x 4 + $5 admin fee for my next visit... that would be $145 -_-'''

Next payday then...

Other than that, here's what I've learnt about my blocks of calcium.

*There is something called intrinsic, which is inborn or born-with, yellow teeth. That means that is the whitest my teeth will ever get, but it's still yellow.

*I have a misaligned jaw, it's slightly left and slightly outward as well. Plus that I grind my teeth occasionally, I have heavy wear for my teeth crowns and the doctor also says that I brush too hard.

Permanent yellow teeth (or should I say, my whitest is yellow) and born with defects, just shows how life is imperfect and how I have to learn to accept myself.

Busy Busy

Busy busy week.

I'll blog about it later... Food first!

By the way, I just pumped Caltex 95 today...

536.7km for 12.94l = 41.47km/l

Another weekend

Another boring weekend, stuck at home.

Checked my bank account and got 2 shocking information...
One, I've got somehow more money than expected.

Second, I've only one bank account.

That means that my ex has terminated our joint account, which I wanted to terminate but I thought it needed me to go down and terminate as well.

Anyway, with that at least I feel that our 8 years together will be finally buried...
Into the pile of memories that I want to forget.

Feels like a movie/drama scene for my life, I wonder where's the story going next...

10th September

"
The occasional rustling and thrashing sounds rang out, breaking the silence in the dark. Rachel clutched her daughter tight as they hid from her drunk and abusive husband. 'Ccccmmmooonn ouuuttttt noww yer lil bitch!'

Hiding away in the kitchen cupboard like professional contortionists, the mother and child kept their silence, their increasing fast and loud heartbeat seemed to scream out terror and protested against the silence. With a thunderous crash of furniture and a loud grunt, all time seem to pause as the rage of abuse ended in all abruptness.

With a still racing heart and trembling frame, the mother emerged from their hiding place. Had their terror ended? Her husband had stumbled over furniture in a fit of rage and knocked himself out, with a massive bruised swell lining his head. Rachel's day ended in peace amidst the raging police and ambulance sirens as they left with the lifeless shell of her spouse.

With her husband in a vegetative state, Rachel starts afresh with her daughter, living her newfound life with hope. Until the accidents started coming... Reckless drivers almost ran her down, her car brakes were sabotaged and other near death 'accidents' threatened to consume her tiny wisp of life. Convinced that it might be the detached soul of her husband returning to wreck his wave of abuse, she decides to visit him in the hospital.

Upon reaching the hospital ward where the dark past of her life lay, motionless, attached to a life support machine, with more life than the man it is supporting, Rachel was forced to face again, the man she once loved. His facial features might have been slightly warped from the swelling and bruising but it was the fallen form of her husband. However, some of his facial trademark mole and birthmarks were missing. Realizing the terror and implication of this revelation, Rachel slowly stepped back with her eyes wide open in terror... This man is not my husband!!!'
"

Well yeah.. end of a chapter 1 book preview??? Not really... I somehow got this story in my head within 10 minutes... Sort of popped in my head when I just woked up for the second time trying to sleep. It's amazing how I got this crazy story and it's a horror to not be able to sleep properly...

Zzz damn... I'll try to sleep again now... got a good 4 hours before I supposed to wake up...
On a good note, having a good weekend this week... Not so no-life afterall, though a little miffed that my ex-girlfriend is taking so long to return something that I need... Oh well... life continues... I have to continuously improve myself.
Catch you again... goodnight! Or should I say, good afternoon... Zzz

9th September

Been working for more than 3 months already... I was starting to get more and more work... So yesterday I emailed my boss about whether I can reduce my customer service time because got some other work to do. His email reply was "No, customer support is YOUR priority."

I got quite upset at that the entire day... I mean, it's like... all 9 hours? What about my break? Doesn't mean that I work in the night means no lunch no dinner... Naturally I was starting to steam with anger I mean... I'm human, no lunch no dinner just because I'm night shift??? I'm not undead -_-'''

And I wanted to ride out to buy MacDonalds for food, cause the nearest place to get food is a 24hrs Indian food stall... The food not really that fantastic and is more expensive than the coffeeshop at my place. Then I looked at the time, 3.54am... F**k... breakfast menu by the time I got there, last order is 3.45am...

So I just do work... until 5.30am I went to toast some bread (I have bread in the office) for my pre -work out carbohydrate... Supposed to eat one hour before at 5am but work work work... 5.30am then went to toast bread... Eat bread while working until 6.44am, was supposed to have a break at 6am, now become 6.44am.. Anyway I did my exercise for the day, went to brush teeth, wash face and put moisturizing cream.

From there, continue work til about 8+ near 9... Was supposed to do some other work but because of what my boss said... I continued to do the customer service work instead of sales... So when he came in I sort of frowned and stuff....

Then I worked til about near 10... supposed to off work at 9... So my other colleague came in and ask if got anything needed help during my shift so I talked about some work... He then told me that those work should be handled by the other colleague instead as it was the other departments' job scope to handle. So with that, I sat down and started to shoot emails (haha) to pass the work to the correct department...

With that.... I was clearing what I needed to push back and sort of have a revelation... That was what my boss was talking about in the email!!! "Customer support is YOUR priority" which means I have been touching other people's job scope and I only realized that today... No wonderr I always have work that cannot clear even though I work hard...

Turns out that I'm still a newbie at working :D
And I've wronged my boss.. He 'Yong Xin Liang Ku'. So now I feel like my email to my boss was abit of self-bashing... Anyway with my things cleared up, I know what to do now... Things that are my job scope is my priority, don't go do other peoples' work.

And on the way back, I noticed Kaelyn is abit dirty... The speedometer like got dirt marks, must be some bugger go and touch... And got 2 bird shit stains... Damn birds... I need a bike cover, or to park under lots without trees...

Gotta go sleep and work hard again tonight... So catch you again my dear blog!

5th September

Hi blog,

Another no-life weekend for me.

Reached home at 10.30, ate breakfast and relaxed til 12 plus...

Then I fetched my dad out to buy some stuff...

Played a few dota games, which all ended miserably when you get shitty team mates...

Slept at around 3pm... And when I opened my eyes and finally got up, it was 1 plus am...

What a day... Woke up, washed up and then went to dota one game til 3 plus am... Then I decided to go out and study so I headed to ECP McDonalds with my laptop...

Was starting up my motorcycles' engine... It was a cold start, but I feel damn paiseh to rev the engine at 3 plus am, somemore it's a HDB carpark.... Don't want the revv-ing to resonate and disturb people... So I left with Kaelyn on a cold engine and rode off slowly....

Was thinking of how the forummers of SBT was saying 'mastering the machine' instead of having a lmotorcycle with good specs... So I tried to advance on my cornering... Not that I can't corner at higher speed, but I used to cycle and skid before due to sand particles... So it was a bit of a shadow that I refuse to leave...

So on the way to Bedok to hit the ECP (via Simei is just too far), I tried cornering at 40-50km/h... Not an issue, it was smooth and stuff... Usually I'll slow down and corner at gear 3 or 4...

With my newfound confidence I went a little faster on corners... However, when I was at the Bedok to ECP entrance, there was a long stretch of curve and so I did a nice corner... Reaching the lower half of the road... Damn, I could hear 'glick glick glick glick' sounds running off my tire and I was like 'F**k', was losing grip of the road... I had to slow down... So once again... I'm not going to leave things to chance... I'm gonna be cornering upright...

Reached carpark C4, not sure if that is the nearest carpark for Marine Cove but walking abit doesn't hurt.

When I got to Mc, I wanted to get a goody goody meal with upsize, imagine the tasty fries, the cold big cup of coke... And then!!! Breakfast menu, at 4.30am... WTF?!!

Yeah I asked and actually breakfast menu starts from 4am... Oh well can't turn back now... So I got a big breakfast and sat down for a nice meal... Damn.. Wanted fries and that apple pie though...

After the meal I took out the laptop and started reading the 'Dummies Guide to PHP 5'. It was a good book, but it lacked tutorials... That sucks... It's just like lectures lectures and lectures...

Halfway through I got bored... Losing focus so I started programming... Was making a file browser to catalogue my documentations... Sounds abit chim but anyway... I also gaveup after hitting some bug... Maybe the server needs a restart but oh well... I left for home...

Was walking back to the carpark when I was looking at the scenery and thought... I should take a picture so that I can remember what I did on my no-life Saturday...

It was quite dark with my camera phone... But surprisingly the preview on the phone and the captured picture is quite different... Got 3 good shots, albeit the only 3 shots...







Made for home from there... Going to dota a few :)
*No life*

The chicken or the egg?

Alright, looks like I've been blogging real much lately, albeit the past 2 days.

Today's thing was about the chicken or the egg...

My bet is not on the chicken, neither the egg...
I bet it on the chicken + rooster!

With an egg, you need it to be fertilized.
With a fertilized egg, you have 50% male chick, 50% female chick.

In the event that the chick factory keeps giving you female chicks (like how people don't get a bit of luck at 4D), at least you have the chicken + rooster to keep going at it!

At the same time, moral of the day, if at first you don't succeed...

MSN Virus!!!

No not me...

And I name this very aptly:

"Another virus trap, from a virus trapped..."

Uneven muscles

Hi all,

I read about this sometime before and decide to post it in case there are people who read my blog... In case... Just in case... Poor lonely blog, only with me to blog and the occasional people who read it.

Anyway, the reason why muscles are growing unevenly, some due to technique issues and to other minor reasons... The main issue is dexterity! Some of us are right handed and some are left handed... Not sure about ambidextrous people...

Basically the logic goes, (I'm right handed) my right hand has better control and so, weight lifting/work is more efficient, using less energy for the same weight, while my non-master hand works harder to lift the same weights my right hand is...

So basically left hand needs more muscle to do the same work so left hand gets more stressed and more muscles at the end of the day...

Total Knockout! Slept for 12 hours

Slept at 11.30am, woke up at 11.30pm. Ouchie, that left me 15 minutes of dinner and then straight to work.

That was most likely a combination of the after effects from [Project Hunk] and the cold rainy day...

Apparently I've increased the load of exercise yesterday and my body wasn't prepared for it... even though it got used to the previous load. So now I have to acclimatize again to get my body being able to take normal days' work and exercise.

"Is it worth it?" you may ask... I'm not entirely sure but I'm gonna continue doing it.
For [Project Hunk]!!!

I have an eye disorder!

1 or 2 years back I knew I had an eye disorder but didn't really read up on it til today...

Turns out it's a pretty serious condition, however I lucked out... My condition is mild, yet it went unnoticed until now. I don't think anyone else knows except me...

It's called exotropia, it's the outward turning of the eyeball (inward turning is esotropia), resulting in binocular diplopia for me.

In short, I see double vision when my eyeball turns outward...

More about it:

- Surgery is OFTEN required, and usually 35% require a second surgery.
- In extreme cases for children, when they have not grasped full control of their binocular vision, the brain may learn to ignore the misaligned eyes' vision, resulting in loss of depth perception in one eye, this condition is called ambloypia, or lazy eye (which most people mistake exotropia/esotropia for).
- Strabismus is a condition when both eyes are not aligned together.
- "Strabismus is more common in children with disorders that affect the brain such as cerebral palsy, Down syndrome, hydrocephalus, and brain tumors."
- "One study has found that children with exotropia went on to develop a psychiatric disorder three times more likely compared with the general population."

So in short: at 24, I found out that I have this disorder, and I'm 3 times more like to develop psychiatric disorders than the general population and might have undiscovered brain disorders. So WATCH OUT!!! The next psychopath might be me!

Read it here:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Exotropia

New P180!

Looks like a P200, logo slightly different, faceted instead of a flat logo. Other than that, split seats, air cooled, no kickstart.

P Plate broken!

Some bugger stole my P Plate by breaking it off... See that tiny white line of plastic below the license plate? Yeah that's the remaining piece of the P Plate.

Now I've a P Plate sticker on the rear fender...

Pictures of Bajaj XCD 135

Saw this at Universal Motors early this month at August 5 or something...
The logo at the tank is kind of cheapo... It's like a plastic wrapped over the tank or something... Doesn't look like paint to me. Just like a plastic wrapping of a mineral water bottle. Not sure about the specs, not interested :D
Here are piccies, Side, Tank and Cowl:

Studying again!

Yeah gonna be self-studying though... Not going to a university again...
Somehow I thought I've put programming behind me...

But it's rearing its head at me again...

Gonna be learning PHP, Javascript and advanced Javascript...
In a span of 1-3 months...

All in the name of career which in the end means $$$ so let's work hard!
[insert japanese hiragana "Ganbatte" here]

Hunk food

Just a separate post, as this contains food!!! MmmMmm I ought to make myself some baked fries right now... haven't had lunch.

Anyway, I've been taking bread with salad for my pre-workout food.
Basically I'm supposed to have carbohydrates, Keongster recommended pasta 1 hr before workout... But I can't be eating spaghetti and stuff all the time so...

The stuff: Tomatoes Carrot Romaine Lettuce Baked potato Cucumber Ham Bread	The yummy greens!
The sauce, kind of oriental, but I'm lovinG it (no McD*nalds infringement there): Soy sauce (Saltiness) Sugar (Sweetness) Pepper (For the kick) Sesame oil OR Olive oil	Da Potato!

Really tasty stuff...

[Project Hunk] update...

Here's my update on [Project Hunk]...

Firstly, my routine is ever changing, to reduce the boredom of exercise...

Now:
Mon/Wed/Fri: Strength training. 15 reps x 3 sets (info from my good friend Keong who's taking some degree)
Targeted areas: Chest/Biceps/Thighs

Mon-Fri: Endurance. 50 reps x 4 sets
Targeted areas: Abdominals

Alright now comes the chatter:

I've recently noticed that there are two areas for the chest muscles... See picture on the right... There's the upper chest and lower chest, upper chest being somewhere above the armpit to armpit line.

The thing being that, all the while I have been doing chest push-ups, it didn't increase mass on the upper chest... so I looked weird for a while >_<
Anyway... I've been doing chest flies... no... not mating with some weird chest fly. It's a name for an exercise maneuver... It has been increasing my mass in the upper chest region so that's a good thing.

Next thing, abdominals. While it still doesn't look as refined as those fitness magazines, I've been gaining mass there... Meaning that the lines aren't still as visible but it's protruding out more...

Gotta work more to get more out... Thanks to information from my good friend Keong :)
When I'm less shy, I'll get pictures up :D

43.8 litres per kilometre!

Woo... got 43.8km/l out of Kaelyn for this month...
Living up the to Pulsar name :D

Seriously such a motorcycle saves $$$ on gas compared to sports motorcycles which gives a fuel consumption per litre or FC 15-22km/l.

Gas Mileage 19 Dec 09: 39.5km/l

Gonna post my gas mileage here, for my Pulsar 200:

07 Jul 09: 12.62l, 0km, 0km/l (First pump)
31 Jul 09: 12.87l, 467km, 36.26km/l
29 Aug 09: 14.45l, 633km, 43.80km/l
03 Oct 09: 12.94l, 536.7km, 41.47km/l
02 Nov 09: 12.78l, 548.5km, 42.91km/l
02 Dec 09: 13.45l, 557.9km, 41.48km/l
19 Dec 09: 11.138l, 440km, 39.5km/l

Lazy blogger

Hiya blog,

Have been a lazy blogger... gonna update you now >_<

Bear arms!

Hiya blog,

I've been a dota gamer, albeit just a normal non-pro casual gamer. I've been playing Lone Druid for a while and one of his speech files cracks me up a lot when you think of it logically.



He says: "Bear arms!".

That would usually mean "Pick up/Ready your weapons and fight!".

But seeing as Lone Druid is a bear/human transforming character, it's really funny that he says it that way.

"Bear legs!"

Sticka Sticker

Hiya blog,

I've got an identity for Kaelyn finally...

Here it is:

Kitty Kat

Decided to just show some pictures of my pet cat, "Tiger".
She's vicious, too independent I guess... But pretty :D

Kaelyn

Well today I went down to Lavender to get a sticker for Kaelyn...
I haven't pasted it yet, will get it on the fuel tank later in the evening, gotta clean her up abit first.

Here's the sticker and the spot to stick on:




And there the pretty girl is (The P Plate is uugly):

Heya

Hiya blog...

It's been some time since I've chatted with you...
Got my motorcycle already, gave her a name.

Although by Bajaj's standards, Pulsar is "Definitely Male"...

Meet Kaelyn! Gonna spray the name on the fuel tank some time later also...
A little lazy to put up piccies, haven't taken much as well.
Will put it up when the spraying/sticker is done :D

Also, for my project super hunk (whatever haha)... Alright alright just Project Hunk.
Project Hunk is slated to be complete by... 18 Dec 2011!

FYI Project Hunk is just about me trying to hunk-ify my body...
Still at work with it, very shy to take pics of my progress...

Lol, if I ever go to the beach then I can show my progress there..
Every little progress helps...

Basically:

[Project Hunk July]
Pectorals: When I was in secondary school I was mostly flat-chested so to speak. I mean for a guy, when your friends are getting more muscular and there I am, scrawny like a bean.
Thighs: I'm not fat, just getting rid of the flab, also it was an initial attempt to boost my SBJ.
Stamina + Calves: This is strictly for my IPPT actually haha... trying to get back to my old standard, 9:14 for 2.4km

I would love to put pictures... Maybe I can just find a photographer first...

Tsk tsk..

Have a good day then blog...

Part time job?

Hmmm...

Now that I've got a bike, I was thinking should I do some part time dispatch work??? After all those $$$ can go into paying my installments or to boost my allowances...

But let's see first, after the end of this month as I'll be finishing my probational contract...

But $300-$500 more a month doesn't sound that bad... But extra 3-4 hours of work a day sounds very shag. ('o')

Motorcycle

Yeah... the short term goal.
I'm aiming to get it on Monday...

At first, I was at a fork in a road (figuratively speaking), split between the Sachs MadAss and the Bajaj Pulsar 200cc DTS-i.

No doubt the MadAss was way cooler, cheaper (by about $1300) but the much smaller fuel tank leaves much to be desired. It loses out in FC by 20%, average 40km per litre. Maintaining cleanliness MIGHT be harder too, since it's a naked frame bike. I'm not going to risk that experience. It's lighter, and might not be as stable as the Pulsar at high speed. It seriously looks like a powered up bicycle of some sorts. It's a 4 speed scooter or is it a bike, that is the question...

Basically MadAss 5.3l fuel tank vs Pulsar 200c 15l fuel tank. I'll have to top up the fuel thrice as often with a MadAss...

Bajaj Pulsar 200cc DTS-i	Sachs MadAss 150cc

A Pulsar looks cool as a sporty bike, has some good fuel consumption efficiency [50km/l on average]...
Though a tad more expensive, but I would prefer it for the larger fuel tank and better FC than the MadAss...

So... when I get my hands on a Pulsar, I'll post it here!

Goals in life?

Hi Blog, it's a been a long time...

No not that I suck at soccer... I don't play soccer so it's not that kinda goals.
Just that I don't seem to have much goals in life... Is that sad? Or is that just because I'm a simple person?

Before when I was still attached, I have a goal of earning and saving enough to get married, buy a flat/apartment and settle down.

Now that I'm single... I've left the following:

Current goals:
Short Term: Get a motorcycle
Long Term (til 29-35 years old): Make a career out of singing???

I'm about to achieve my short term goal... That leaves the long term goal. But as such, making a career out of singing is a far-fetched dream. As people usually tell you, 兴趣不能当饭吃. That means you can't make a living out of your hobbies.

So in that sense, I'm about to achieve my short term goal, I seriously starting to think... I won't have any goals to aim towards after I get my transport...

Is that happening to you too? Or do you just have too many exciting goals to live towards? I guess not, you're just a blog. Maybe you'll get a lot more traffic as a goal or get prettier designs, but I'm a lazy blogger...

Pushing to the limit

Hi blog,

I for one, was pushed to the limit today, a physical limit. Many have talked about pushing past your limit like it was easy as 3.142 (catch the pun?). In fact, I have pushed past my limit so hard that I remember the trauma that I had during my conscription... aka army days.

I had to take my annual fitness test and am under-nourished and lack rest. Imagine having instant noodles for your past two meals and only two hours of sleep after work before your fitness test.

I had to conquer 6 laps (stadium standard, 400m) total 2.4km. I was doing fine up til the 4th round, which my stamina and energy was bled dry by then. The last two rounds? It was literally the limit. Have you tried pushing so hard that your body tells you to f**k off? Well not in that sense but pushing so hard that you know you have to do it, yet it's so painful that you're almost crying.

I did a route march before and literally cried... well it wasn't exactly a route march, it was a training mission and I had the heaviest load amongst the group.

Which sometimes make me think how much bullsh*t it is when people talk of pushing their limit.
F**k that.

Busy busy

Hi Blog,

Haven't spoke to you for days!
What's up? Nothing much for you I guess...
My life is quite a boring one I should add... Not much memories to remember.

I do somehow fear that if I keep doing the things that I enjoy and yet leave no memories, does that make me a happy person? I enjoy eating, playing games... Yet these leave not much memories compared to doing crazy stuff here and there. What about you?

Anyhoo, I can't wait til the end of the month. And yes I used the word "til"!, those American spell checkers keep forcing me to use words like till and stuff... Anyway I'm digressing... End of the month I'll be getting my own transport... Should be fun..

Oh yeah, I'm actually working now... I've refrained from posting that here since I didn't want my ex-girlfriend to know. But so what, I can't keep it under wraps forever... At the same time, I have only 55 impressions on my blog as of now, so who sees what I write anyway.

So here's the thing I'll be blowing my paycheck on a motorbike, maybe I'll get pictures up.. But it's not going to be pretty... The bike is either 8 years old or 18 years old but I don't really care as long as the engine doesn't die on me.

I'll post pictures up when I get them :D

Radiohead all over again...

Hi blog,

I'm picking up listening to some music that my brother used to play...
Used to think it was kind of emo...

Still think it is, just that I've understood more about emotions...
Over-using or focusing on an emotion can make you change, but learn to balance it...

Because life isn't like a bad story, there are bright sides and people who love you..

Anyway, I'm not emo-ing..

d|-_-|b : Radiohead - Creep
d|-_-|b : Radiohead - High and Dry
d|-_-|b : Radiohead - My Iron Lung

Vodka vodka vodka vodka...

Hi blog...

I was itching to drink some alcohol today...
Went to get a flavourless carbonated drink, mixed in some juice concentrated and the one last ingredient...
Alcohol!

When I was alcohol-legal, me and the group of friends' usual alcohol was vodka with mixers...
As time went by my ex-girlfriend changed her taste to scotch whiskey (Chivas),
but I don't really like that strong lingering (ink-like) taste in the drink...

So today I tried out vodka again.. and voila! No more irritating taste in my drink...
Gonna knock out for the day now...

Goodnight blog...

Pursuing my dreams!

Hi bloggie...

Now that I have more freedom,
I want to do the things that I've wanted to but didn't...
I wanna go and learn breakdance... erm actually... I'm kind of lazy...
But if I had to choose a type of dance to learn, it will be break dancing..

Yeah and I'm going back to learning guitar again...
Getting better with the fingering even though my left pinkie has a
permanent muscle injury.

Kekeke... hopefully I can hit stardom or at least get a part time job with my
(hopefully it is) talents.

Catch ya again...

I had a sweet sweet dream 2 nights ago..
I can remember the details but I can't remember the feeling...
Sad :(

Sing???

Hiya blog,

today I'll be going down for a singing competition (No it's not Singapore Idol), I'm more of a mandarin song singer...

Most of my friends know that I love to sing...
But only a handful know that I have stage fright.

Ever since I realized that I cannot win any competition when I have stage fright,
I've stopped looking at the prizes on any competition.

I compete just to break my fear...
Have I broken it yet?

I'll find out tonight...

Wish me the best, dear blog.

Cockroach?

Hey blog,

I was in the office today... Doing my work as usual...
And at the corner of my eye I spotted something small and black...
It was moving at the next desk and first thing I did,
was look at my food supply on the table.

I said "If you're aiming for my food, I'm gonna kill you."
And a second later, "Wait, even if you're not, I'm gonna kill you."

And proceeded to hunt the little bugger but it got away :(

Work work!

Hi all...

Haven't been updating my blog, though I know not many read it.
Heck, I'm mostly the one reading my own blog...
But blogging is a way to remember myself and what the f@#$ I was thinking at that time.

I've finished a week of work at my new job.
Like I said in the previous post, I'm working the graveyard shift...
But I can still find time to do some exercise... so it's kinda fun in a way.

A little stressed out as I'm still new, with myself not being sure of how to handle certain situations...

But I feel lucky :D

On exercise, I've started working my chest again...
Haven't touched the abs for some time, but its still there...

Hope to update my personal memories again sometime...

Cya again blog!

Daily Sets of Exercise!

Hi all,

I've increased my daily set again, because the current set seems to
be getting easier by each day...

Though I'm taking a break right now because I have
to condition my body clock. I just got a job and
I will have to work from 12am to 9am, so its the graveyard shift so to speak.

Annnnnyyywayyy....

Here's my current set:
3 sets of
20 chest push ups (No change there)
50 crunches, using 3x1.5l bottles, that's a change of 50x3kg to 50x4.5kg.

And 500 max of jump rope.

It's starting to get hard to hug those damn 1.5l bottles...
Hugging one and two bottles are fine, but three? They are starting to
slip out of my hug.

Regarding my running, I'll have to get back to it soon...
My target time is 16min for a 4.3km track.
Which my latest record a few weeks back was 26min plus...

Gotta hit the running track soon...

Cya folks, hope you're getting healthy as well!

THIS IS SPARTA!

Well, I watched 300 on HBO again yesterday.

Note that I said AGAIN.

The first time watching in the theatre was a WOW!

Hot bods and stuff with the heroic killings of Persian soldiers and what not.

But what I've noticed through the second viewing was that, their hot bodies ain't all that hyped up to be. Sure those are nice chests, abs, arms and legs. But they're not Olympic bodybuilder standards, they are more like the desirable beach body.

So it makes it seem even easier to reach my goal of a hot beach body.

Cya around, maybe in 2-6 months when I get my Spartan body I'll start posting pics.
The abs are coming out nicely... but if you've been following my posts, I'm a lazy exerciser!

Good luck to all you hotties-to-be out there!

Exercise Woes!

Oh no! I've been slacking behind on my exercises again!

Well there's lazy person for you.

To cut the story short, I've modified my training regime again.

Here's it:

20 chest (diamond) pushups, followed by
50 ab crunches with a 1.5kg weight on chest.

3 sets of the above-mentioned, followed by a continuous jump rope of 200 jumps.
Works out fine, I've done it twice already, once today and once two days ago.

How are you, dear reader, working out right now?

Haircut!

Sup y'all.

Went for a haircut today as I need a presentable look by tomorrow for some matters.

As usual, I've enjoyed my haircuts.

I find it therapeutic to have attention to my body, like when you go for a massage, a haircut and stuff.

Ah.. the enjoyment, but a good and cheap haircut only comes in like one to two months (Hair don't grow that fast you know!).

Maybe I'm weird, but hey, I love it =)

Repair that headphone!

Hi y'all!

I picked up my favourite set of spoilt headphones, just to repair it, a repair job that has been pushed back for a couple of months.

As usual, most headphones lose their sound in either the left or right ear and usually its the cause of a broken wire either at the head or jack portion.

Picking up my trusty solder and repair kit, I did a quick repair job!

Although I had some basic electronics training, I actually failed to repair it on the first attempt, since I had no experience with audio cables.

I've yahoo-ed a website that taught me about it, turns out that audio cables had insulation that you have to burn away!

Any-hoo (hoo for yahoo!), I've repaired it and am listening to great music right now.

Anyone interested in fixing your own headphones, here's a guide, the website that I've found.

How to repair earbud headphones

Running records

Here's my running records at Bedok Reservoir.

The length measured there is 4.3km

Although I take a glance at my watch at the 2.5km mark (training for IPPT),
I only have the timings for my actual run.

4th Run, 3rd April Friday: 26min 30s
5th Run, 6th April Monday: 26min 14s

Fitness Frenzy!

Hey guys, whats up?

I have been on a fitness drive since from November 2008.
Truth be told, I'm a lazy person, very very lazy.

So how did I take up exercise?
Firstly, I want to look good.
Secondly, I believe in getting fit and healthy, no point struggling to even walk around properly when I'm old.

But the question is, for a lazy person like me, how do I get started?
The answer to my own question was, TAKE IT SLOW.

Of course you will need a level of discipline to get things done, but at the same time do it at your own pace. No point traumatizing yourself to get a good workout for one day and dread doing it again the next day!

So here's what I've been doing:

Working on my abs, chest and running.

I run at Bedok Reservoir near my home (30 minutes walk actually) and it is a 4.3km running route.

I have been taking my running time daily and it is improving!

Here's a link to my running records!

My Own Programs!

Hey guys!

I've uploaded my own coded programs to the web so you guys can use it.

I will be adding more programs as and when I write a new one.
They are all free to download and the only restriction is that I've
uploaded them to Megaupload and Rapidshare so you have to download from there.

Cheers!

Program List:

Uknight's Link Maker!

Uknight's Link Maker

Uknight's Link Maker v1.1

Anyway, I use this program when I am surfing the web and going to download something.

However, when there are a lot of links and they are NOT hyperlinked, I have to manually copy and paste them.

This program makes it easy by creating a html file so you can open those links with ease.

Download them here now, I've uploaded them to Megaupload and Rapidshare.

Rapidshare
Megaupload

I've uploaded some pictures, they act somewhat like a tutorial as well.

Step 1:


Step 2:


Step 3:


Step 4:

Earn $$ money $$ with some daily gaming?

Hi all,

Lately I've been trying this new browser game. It's just on the top right corner of this blog and also at the end of this post, to check it out just click on the banner. Supposedly you can earn money with it, so here I'm trying it out.

Don't expect too much though, expect maybe 2-4 dollars for one month? And it will reset every month so if you want to start, start now since it's just at the beginning of April.

If you're playing it, feel free to share some tips by commenting. =)

A new blogging experience!

Hi all!

This is my first attempt at blogging, after seeing so many other people starting up blogs. I must be really slow at catching up with the times...

I'm hoping to add more posts and sections to my blog and hope that you readers will enjoy reading my blog as much as I enjoy blogging.

Cheers!